Clearly I don't have the time to blog as much - for me, nidhi or yukti. But a short note here :) The last year with Yukti has been quite a ride. She has blossomed beautifully. And every month has seen her change, open up some more. After the initial few days of shock at being in a new environment, she left aside her tightness and resistance, started to speak, yak, babble, want to be read books, imitating Nidhi action to action and word to word, figuring out routines, figuring out the rules of the house, negotiating patterns. Nidhi was in Sholayoor for a month with Satish and that gave me and Yukti a lot of time to bond together and for her also to figure out her routine without Nidhi. Slowly she has now come to a place where she initiates her own activities, points out things that she is noticing to us and nidhi, taking initiative, wanting to choose her own clothes, and many other things. She has also now engages in her pretend play and chooses what she wants to do. Of course still has an eye on what Nidhi does :)
What has not changed one bit since she came is the charisma that she has, and I hope it remains :) She is a charmer. One look and people are charmed - is it her eyes, the ways she walks, carries herself so surely and confidently, her way of looking at you mischeviously or all of it. Strangers and friends alike are charmed by her and all want a piece of her :)
She has her way of saying what she wants. "Yei, enna pakkade", "ennaku theriyadu, nee chollu", "amma, seiya (seriya)", answering confidently even if she does not know something, looking down and wanting to meet eyes when she knows we are upset about what she did or if she was not supposed to do something, transgressing smaller boundaries and limits we set and then giving us a sheepish, coy, and charming look. Speech explosion is happening with very cute mazhalai and it is adorable. Windmill is will, theriyade is theiyade, theriyum is theiyun, kuchino is kullikanam, etc. etc. Need to record more of her mazhalai before she grows up and loses it.
My roly poly, bubbly chubby, mischievous, often falling and tripping, giggling, confident, daring, scared of insects, circular bundle of joy. I am totally in love with you finally and the attachment seems complete now :) 100% It has taken me a year, but I have reached. What took me so long? Don't know. Maybe there were things within me that had to be processed which took this while. And I know Yukti will continue to bring up those things within me that need to be worked on. I am now at a place where I feel at peace being a mother to Nidhi and Yukti in different ways. Something within shifted in the last month and I feel complete in my relationship with Yukti. Looking forward to more interesting moments in life with her.
What has not changed one bit since she came is the charisma that she has, and I hope it remains :) She is a charmer. One look and people are charmed - is it her eyes, the ways she walks, carries herself so surely and confidently, her way of looking at you mischeviously or all of it. Strangers and friends alike are charmed by her and all want a piece of her :)
She has her way of saying what she wants. "Yei, enna pakkade", "ennaku theriyadu, nee chollu", "amma, seiya (seriya)", answering confidently even if she does not know something, looking down and wanting to meet eyes when she knows we are upset about what she did or if she was not supposed to do something, transgressing smaller boundaries and limits we set and then giving us a sheepish, coy, and charming look. Speech explosion is happening with very cute mazhalai and it is adorable. Windmill is will, theriyade is theiyade, theriyum is theiyun, kuchino is kullikanam, etc. etc. Need to record more of her mazhalai before she grows up and loses it.
My roly poly, bubbly chubby, mischievous, often falling and tripping, giggling, confident, daring, scared of insects, circular bundle of joy. I am totally in love with you finally and the attachment seems complete now :) 100% It has taken me a year, but I have reached. What took me so long? Don't know. Maybe there were things within me that had to be processed which took this while. And I know Yukti will continue to bring up those things within me that need to be worked on. I am now at a place where I feel at peace being a mother to Nidhi and Yukti in different ways. Something within shifted in the last month and I feel complete in my relationship with Yukti. Looking forward to more interesting moments in life with her.
